Saturday, March 22, 2014

its not you, its me

you're intimidating.

if xyz bullshit in my life was different, being with you would be my dream.

you're abc and def, but right now the timing just isnt right.

i should have seen what i had before i lost you.

bullshit. its like there's a script. obviously, its me... but what the fuck am i supposed to do to change it?

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

tonight is hard

all i can see tonight is the image of finding her. i just want to see my sister- her, not what i found. i'm not ok. i'm not equipped to be ok yet. 

i fucking hate this song tonight because my dreams are nightmares and they already came true. but i cant stop listening to it. i cant stop wishing i could change it. i just... i dont know, but tonight... i cant.