Monday, April 1, 2013

Cornball moment about moving

I don't have the time or the energy to go into a lengthy blog post about what im feeling right now, but I wanted to at least mark what feels like a huge change. Its not that I haven't felt, seen and relished in the changes in my life over the last few years- but this weekend everything really hit me.

I moved out of my apartment this weekend. When I moved in, I was broken. My main motivation for moving was financial. It was cheaper, smaller and would allow a little more security if I was to receive an overseas assignment at work. It was across town, so the chances of running into anyone I knew were low. I needed peace. I needed to cut any random opportunity for past hurts to reappear. I needed to be alone and just live in the depression I had been sinking into over the previous few years. This apartment did that for me. And for the first year- that's exactly what I did.

Im not going to go back to that year with myself or this post,  but I knowing it happened and seeing where I sit now, I feel incredibly lucky. And blessed. And... *sigh* wow. I made it.

Life isn't perfect. I still question myself. But I'm happy and so much healthier mentally, emotionally and physically.  And im thankful for the changes in my life that came as a result of my time in this apartment.  Its been a good ride, 305. Thanks for holding my life through it.