Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Seriously God?

Im dying. No, for real.. My head is about to explode, sending pieces of matter all about my not nearly clean enough to be discovered in apartment.
I can't talk because my throat is swollen and it gives me a headache to try. Im breaking out in sweats, nose is running and overall Im miserable....  But i have no temperature, so there is nothing i can do about it.
I gulped down about a half a bottle of nyquil last night at 9 and went into a vix coma until morning. On  the wakeup i had that "oh i feel so much better!" moment -the one that tricks you into thinking everything cool-until you move and midget resume bashing you in the face with 2x4s again.
God, do you realize Im going to see Diana freaking Ross this evening?!? That i have a dress ready to go that i didn't cry upon trying on?!! Do you remember that the isleys are coming THIS weekend!?! I haven't been really truly ill in a few  years and i get sick now!!!

Sunday, September 25, 2011


Happy Sunday folks! Just a quick update as i sit in my car outside of the gym (yes,i already went in lol). I fell short of my 4x a week goal last week, but starting this week out strong- took 2 minutes and some change off my 5k time. My legs are angry as a mug and my knee felt like it was going to crack in half around 15 minutes in. Realizing how much stress and unnecessary damage I've put my body through over the years is a hard pill to swallow. THIS USED TO BE EASY!!!! But i will not let that stop me from fixing it. I slowed down for 3 minutes and let my body work through it. And whaddyano.. I didnt die lol.
I hopped on the scale after-i know that the worst time to weigh yourself, but i forgot on the way in, so it is what it is.. 2lbs down. That number seems so trying to reroute my thinking, remind myself that it creeped on when i wasn't looking, it will come off the same way-but thats easier said than done.
I ordered some meal plans from this site I've been reading for about a year about clean eating and dedicating oneself to making a change for life. (go read it: I love the site and the author is a real inspiration. Now its just a matter of making myself my own inspiration. One foot in front of the goes i.

As far as my other goals, im not even looking at the goal jeans until im a good month into this.
I have 2/3 debts i wanted done before the end of this semester out of the way and im on the way to finishing off the second.
And i still havent had a cigarette. I bought the second box of patches last week. My biggest challenge has been buying the second box instead of a loosie (or an entire pack). So hurdle one out of the way. I have the electric cigarette & use on the drive home from work (you knee my job and right now i need that lol) but the rest of the time i'm fine. I even went to a bbq last weekend with most of the attendees being smokers and though i chomped through a few pieces of gum to take the edge off, made it through with a smile.

That's it i guess..folk on the move!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Why wait?

Before i get into todays thought, let me just say- i should have upgraded my phone a long time ago! A blogger app? No more messing with trying yo post from a phone browser? No more not posting because the thought of pulling out my laptop after a long day is just too much? No more forgetting that great post idea? Im so in!! post-why wait?
I can't even describe how much people and their new years resolutions get on my nerves-myself included. (although i do make a point to keep them to myself lol) Overnight you're going to transform into a skinny waif type with a ghetto booty? And quit smoking? And get your credit right? And get right with God? And give up crack? AND not go crazy? Thats a rough freakin day! And when does a resolution expire? Where's the follow up? When is it safe to say you failed? The next year? Nah, thats too broad to stick too and we all know it.

This year im not doing it. We have three and a half months left until 2012. I don't even know what my resolutions were last year exactly (i could guess the basics, but you see where im going with that). This year, new years is my deadline for a few small goals. Nothing that is going to require an entire life over haul.. But enough that if i keep up the 3month deadline format for a few rotations i should be on an entirely different path. Im good with that.

In the interest of keeping me we go. My goals. Specifically. With no room for 'i kinda did that.' excuses.

°be smoke free (still). I started 9/8(again) and you all know im good for stopping/restarting every time the weather changes, so this time its a 3 month requirement to reach the goal. Guess i better not pull any of that 'just a loosie' madness.

°fit into the dark wash low rise jeans 3rd from the back of my closet. Yes, i have 3 different 'goal' jeans. This is the one im closest to making it into. Im going grocery shopping tomorrow to make my start on that goal.

°37 min 5k. In high school i could go it in my sleep under 30.That's 7 extra minutes and pushing myself to make it if i can hit that goal by January. So I've got to shave 5 minutes off a month from now on.

°get 3 current debts off my to do list. The first one is in my purse to be sent right now. I have 2 more for bills I'll be accumulating this semester. All will be gone before this year is out. Secondary to those i would like to get my credit score up 50 points. I have it set up so this is very doable if i use my current accounts wisely.

°a degree. Don't care its not the one im ultimately going for.. But its SOMETHING. I will have it!

I know I've already had a chance to get started, but i would like you to do this with me. Take the next few weeks and lay the ground work. October 1 is d-day... Folks on the move!!