Saturday, April 4, 2009

for as long as you let me stay..

Spent so much time unsure of decisions that needed to made
Scared to cash out on a hand that should be played
Intent on securing what you came for,
So when you should have walked away, you stayed.
Gave him benefit of the doubt when your mind told you no
Became comfortable with taking it slow
And slow is good,
Except when slow means you’re only important after the last show
But the last show never comes
The work he values so much is never done
After all- the ambition what attracted you, silly girl
You refused to see that to him- that’s serious, and you? Well you are only for fun.
Fun wanes when reality is brought into the equation
And reality is not what his desires are based in
Bottom line, you aren’t allowed to ask for more
There is no room for your needs at this station
So the train moved on down the track
Leaving you to wonder what it is you really lack
Could you have given more, taken less
Was there ever a time he said he needed you and you didn’t have his back?
Not that you can think of, but who really knows
What more you could have shown
How much clearer you could be
Always the enigma, with this one you let your cover be blown

And blow you did…
Your time- forever waiting,
Your mind- steady reeling,
Your heart- still holding,
Your sleep- always listening,
Your body, lets just be honest about that one- blowing...
Hoping not to be let down

But when you gave him the parts of you rarely seen
When you took of the mask and came clean
That you needed more of him
Hoping to break the fa├žade and bring real life to the scene
He walked away
From you, from the situation, from the rare tears you could no longer keep at bay
It wasn’t until that moment that you were finally able to see
That to him- you weren’t a ‘plan’ you were a ‘for as long as you let me stay’

And the honestly of that moment was all you were asking for
You just wished he stood up and said it like man, instead of speaking through the closing of a door.
And the honestly of that moment was all you were asking for
You just wished he stood up and said it like man, instead of speaking through the closing of a door.

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